Tomorrow is the BIG day

So I've been fairly introspective the last few days but I know I should be updating you guys!  The liquid diet has been REALLY hard for me to deal with.  I never really appreciated the ability to have what I want - when I want it.  I went to a craft fair yesterday and the smell of hot dogs and pizza was nearly crippling for me!  The soft pretzels were trying to follow me but I foiled them.  Thankfully I was surrounded by folks holding me accountable so that wasn't an option.  Last night I went to sleep dreaming about a turkey and cheese hoagie.

Today I've been feeling pretty blah.  I cried a lot this morning.  And I cried when my DH took DD to my in-laws for a few days.  When I have obstacles to face I tend to withdraw.  I did this with DD's labor and delivery.  I think it's what makes me strong.  I use that energy and direct it to where I need it.  I honestly don't know how I'll be feeling this time tomorrow night but I know that whatever happens will make me a stronger and better person.

The hunger and pain will only last a short time compared to the life I'm giving myself by having this surgery.  So here I go, no looking back - onward and upward!