Surgery is scheduled for September 12th. Yes, it seems far away and at first I was disappointed but I'm trying to look at is as plenty of time to prepare myself. I'm on a "bump up" list as well.
Whoo! Feeling excited right now. Wonder when the terror will set in??
Friday, May 27, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Has it been 10 days yet??
I'm trying to be patient. I really am. I'm not doing well on that front. A co-worker of mine is getting the lap band. She's a sweetheart and I'm glad to have a WLS buddy at work that I can talk to.
I think I'm just going to call Dr. B's office on Friday and ask anyway. The worst they can say is call back next week.
I've been trying to plan out coping strategies for after the surgery. One of the things I've decided to do is start singing again. There's a local choir that meets up once a week and I'm going to join in September. This will give me something to look forward to that is just for me!
La-La-La..... :)
I think I'm just going to call Dr. B's office on Friday and ask anyway. The worst they can say is call back next week.
I've been trying to plan out coping strategies for after the surgery. One of the things I've decided to do is start singing again. There's a local choir that meets up once a week and I'm going to join in September. This will give me something to look forward to that is just for me!
La-La-La..... :)
Monday, May 23, 2011
EGD all done!
Completed my final hurdle for insurance approval on Friday! It was a piece of cake thankfully!
I was more nervous about the IV than anything. The nurses and anesthesiologist were very nice and kept me talking so I wouldn't freak out. The IV didn't hurt too bad at all. They walked me back to the OR and I laid down on my side. Pillows propped me up. They strapped this thing in my mouth to protect my teeth from the camera. It went really fast but it helped that all the nurses and doctors were smiling and talking to me. The anesthesia burned going in but I was literally out in seconds. Woke up feeling great, like I had slept for hours! DH got to meet Dr. B which was good. Dr. B said I have a small hiatel hernia but that is pretty common and may even be caused by my weight. So he gave me the all clear for surgery. He told me to call his office in 10 days to see if I was approved and to schedule a date. ::CROSSES FINGERS::
On another note, Thursday evening I finally went to the podiatrist. He thought I might have a stress fracture and he wants me to come back. I got my X-rays after my EGD (they told me to go home after but it was the same building - thought I'd just get it out of the way). Just talked to the podiatrist's receptionist - she said I didn't have a stress fracture -sigh. Hopefully the doc will give me a solution.
I felt fine after EGD, not even a scratchy throat. Then yesterday I developed this horrible cough and sore throat. I feel just awful. Wonder if I picked it up at the hospital or from one of my nephews on Saturday. BLAH.
I was more nervous about the IV than anything. The nurses and anesthesiologist were very nice and kept me talking so I wouldn't freak out. The IV didn't hurt too bad at all. They walked me back to the OR and I laid down on my side. Pillows propped me up. They strapped this thing in my mouth to protect my teeth from the camera. It went really fast but it helped that all the nurses and doctors were smiling and talking to me. The anesthesia burned going in but I was literally out in seconds. Woke up feeling great, like I had slept for hours! DH got to meet Dr. B which was good. Dr. B said I have a small hiatel hernia but that is pretty common and may even be caused by my weight. So he gave me the all clear for surgery. He told me to call his office in 10 days to see if I was approved and to schedule a date. ::CROSSES FINGERS::
On another note, Thursday evening I finally went to the podiatrist. He thought I might have a stress fracture and he wants me to come back. I got my X-rays after my EGD (they told me to go home after but it was the same building - thought I'd just get it out of the way). Just talked to the podiatrist's receptionist - she said I didn't have a stress fracture -sigh. Hopefully the doc will give me a solution.
I felt fine after EGD, not even a scratchy throat. Then yesterday I developed this horrible cough and sore throat. I feel just awful. Wonder if I picked it up at the hospital or from one of my nephews on Saturday. BLAH.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Feeling blue.
I'm not sure what is going on with me right now. Yesterday and today I have been really down. I came home from work, climbed in to bed and cried for an hour yesterday before I went to pick up my DD. Today I'm walking around with tears perched at the corners of my eyes waiting for a trigger to start them streaming down my face.
I've been thinking about trying to find a new career path but that is so overwhelming as I don't even know where to begin! And then I worry that I should wait until after surgery because who wants to hire someone who will be going out for a few weeks? Plus I need disability to cover it so I need to stay here until it's over.
I have my EGD on Friday which I'm excited to get over and done with but it must also be making me more uptight and anxious. Things that normally are a 2 on my annoyance scale have jumped to a 7 or 8. I am so tired of being fat and am starting to get impatient about the surgery wait. Also, I've been tilting back to going on weight watchers one more time.
It's alot to think about and I'm completely overwhelmed and am so close to just staying in bed and hiding under the covers until everything is just a memory. Thank goodness I have a mostly understanding hubby and a beautiful daughter. If it weren't for them, I would have checked into a facility by now.
I've been thinking about trying to find a new career path but that is so overwhelming as I don't even know where to begin! And then I worry that I should wait until after surgery because who wants to hire someone who will be going out for a few weeks? Plus I need disability to cover it so I need to stay here until it's over.
I have my EGD on Friday which I'm excited to get over and done with but it must also be making me more uptight and anxious. Things that normally are a 2 on my annoyance scale have jumped to a 7 or 8. I am so tired of being fat and am starting to get impatient about the surgery wait. Also, I've been tilting back to going on weight watchers one more time.
It's alot to think about and I'm completely overwhelmed and am so close to just staying in bed and hiding under the covers until everything is just a memory. Thank goodness I have a mostly understanding hubby and a beautiful daughter. If it weren't for them, I would have checked into a facility by now.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Patience is a virtue.....or so I'm told.
I called Dr. B's office yesterday to get an idea of what kind of timeframe I'm looking at. They said they will submit to insurance after the endoscopy, which I knew, and then it could take up to two weeks to get approved, which I also knew. I guess I was hoping to hear something magical, like surprise we already got you approved...lol. She also said Dr. B's surgeries are currently scheduling for 2 months out. ACK! So, hypothetically if all is submitted the Monday following my endoscopy which would be May 23rd, and insurance approves in two weeks, which would be June 6th, then my surgery would be in early August. And that's if everything is done in a timely manner...sigh.
I know I shouldn't be rushing anything, especially something like major surgery, but I was really hoping to lose some weight this summer. I think my goal will be to lose weight anyway prior to surgery. It will just make surgery go more smoothly and my weight loss better afterwards. I have no clue where to start, especially because I have precious little free time as it is. And no desire to purchase exercise clothing that fits me at this size. Maybe I'll have S hook up the Wii in the new family room. And I might as well start following my post-surgery diet plan right?? LOL. Wishful thinking but it's worth a try.
I know I shouldn't be rushing anything, especially something like major surgery, but I was really hoping to lose some weight this summer. I think my goal will be to lose weight anyway prior to surgery. It will just make surgery go more smoothly and my weight loss better afterwards. I have no clue where to start, especially because I have precious little free time as it is. And no desire to purchase exercise clothing that fits me at this size. Maybe I'll have S hook up the Wii in the new family room. And I might as well start following my post-surgery diet plan right?? LOL. Wishful thinking but it's worth a try.
Monday, May 9, 2011
Summer Dread
It's that time of year again. Summer is approaching. The weather is warming up and clothing is coming off. You may not be aware but most fat people HATE the summertime. Not only do I have less clothes to cover up and hide but I sweat horribly. I'm not trying to be disgusting but I literally have to shower and change at least twice a day in the summer because I sweat so bad. And GOD do I hate sweating!
I hate wearing shorts in public as well. I used to be okay with capris but even those have betrayed me now that my stomach is out of proportion with my legs thanks to childbirth. So I suffer in silence wearing pants as an obese martyr of sorts. Taking one for the team per say. If I don't want to look at my pasty white cellulite laden legs than who would?
This summer is worse than before because I am now at the heaviest I have ever really been. I do not want to go crazy buying clothes because with any luck I will be having surgery and will lose weight. However, I do not know when my surgery will be yet and I am already suffering in my fall maternity tops that I've been wearing well past the acceptable date of wearing them post-childbirth. I purchased two tank tops and two short sleeved cardigans and will pick up a couple more things when my LB Real Women dollars are valid in a week or two. Hopefully, I will know if I'm having surgery by then.
I'm sad that I'll have to suffer through one more summer of fatness but I keep reminding myself that next summer I will hopefully be rocking a swimsuit without...GASP...a coverup!! But for now I will have to deal with my current state of "Beached whale" for all to gag at.
I hate wearing shorts in public as well. I used to be okay with capris but even those have betrayed me now that my stomach is out of proportion with my legs thanks to childbirth. So I suffer in silence wearing pants as an obese martyr of sorts. Taking one for the team per say. If I don't want to look at my pasty white cellulite laden legs than who would?
This summer is worse than before because I am now at the heaviest I have ever really been. I do not want to go crazy buying clothes because with any luck I will be having surgery and will lose weight. However, I do not know when my surgery will be yet and I am already suffering in my fall maternity tops that I've been wearing well past the acceptable date of wearing them post-childbirth. I purchased two tank tops and two short sleeved cardigans and will pick up a couple more things when my LB Real Women dollars are valid in a week or two. Hopefully, I will know if I'm having surgery by then.
I'm sad that I'll have to suffer through one more summer of fatness but I keep reminding myself that next summer I will hopefully be rocking a swimsuit without...GASP...a coverup!! But for now I will have to deal with my current state of "Beached whale" for all to gag at.
Mother's Day
My Mother's Day had it's moments. DH had to work and so it was me and DD for most of the day. We went shopping at Target in the morning and then after nap we had a picnic lunch in the backyard. That was probably my favorite part of the day. Pending the weather, I'd like to make it a regular weekly occurrence for her and I. We spent an hour eating and playing on a blanket in the yard! Her adorableness is so overwhelming sometimes and I wonder how someone so adorable came from me?
We had a Mother's Day BBQ at the in-laws. It was nice but sometimes family gatherings can be too overwhelming! When I come home I feel like I was at a rock concert with my ears ringing.
These family gatherings always make me feel very large and awkward. Everyone is so thin and well-dressed and I'm just huge and in the way most of the time. I can't wait until I start losing some weight and I can feel comfortable in my own skin again.
We had a Mother's Day BBQ at the in-laws. It was nice but sometimes family gatherings can be too overwhelming! When I come home I feel like I was at a rock concert with my ears ringing.
These family gatherings always make me feel very large and awkward. Everyone is so thin and well-dressed and I'm just huge and in the way most of the time. I can't wait until I start losing some weight and I can feel comfortable in my own skin again.
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